Just..when i thot i wanted to delete this blog for the 4th time kot, i saw my blog name at one of my angel's blog. Huhuhu...x jadik nk delete. Maybe later, when i developed extreme boredom towards my own blog.

Ok, let's catch up:

My last post is on baby Aqeel. He's 1 mth++ i think. The mommy & baby is doing great. As for me, i hv my own BIG surprise of my own not long after Aqeel's birth and when i'm all ready to go to my angel's wedding reception in Muar (konon as a surprise for her), it turns out to be i'm the one yg surprised & the surprise for the bride tidak menjadik at all. Sorry dear.

It turns out to be urs truly is pregnant [just when she decided to conceive after 1 year]. So, we cancelled every single plan and headed straight to my gynae. She was so so extremely happy and did not expect me to conceive this early (5mths after the major op). Neither do i & dh. Apart fr being happy, i was in shocked (btw, dh is happy & cool with the news). huhu.

A few days later, i was bleeding while at work and admitted to the hospital for 4 days (itu pun, after i begged to be discharged). Sib baik, the gynae understand, and she ordered me to bedrest & put me on MC for about a month already. I'm still on MC now. hehe.

By the way, right now everything seems ok. Let's hope that everything is getting better. I just cant go thru the same ordeal again.

* at 5 weeks : we saw the lil sac.

* at 6 weeks: we saw the tiny lil one inside.

*at 7 weeks: we heard for the first time our lil one's heartbeat.

*at 8 weeks: we saw our lil one make his/her lil jump while being scan.

Can't wait for my next check up. If everything is fine, our lil one will be actively moving by then. By the way i'm at my 9 weeks now.

Ok, i'm done here. Feel tired & uncomfortable sitting on the sofa this long. I'll update again when i feel up to it.

P/s: Happy Ramadhan everyone, eventho' i'm not fasting. thehehe...

"A new baby is like the beginning of all things - wonder, hope, a dream of possibilities"

Our latest Craze!! Adorable isn't he? CONGRATULATIONS on ur newborn HOT Mommy!

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Shocking News

me: ko buat ape tu

princess: duk termenung tgk calender nk pk sape lg yg nk pg MAnjung kalau ltk aku kt ceruk selangor pun tkper melaka or seremban stil bleh tolerate.

princess: b rase nk nangis

me: jgn weh. jgn nangis. k.mah tak ckp ke ade org lain ke nk pegi ke?

princess: die kt tkder n tmpt tu urgent nk org

princess: b ko pun kene transfer ni jd Mg kt KL

me: iye ke??? serious???serious?????? ko main2 ke ape ke

princess: serius aku nmpk ni aku br dpt surat

me: nama penuh aku ke

princess: ade nama ko skali. yup

Above is the conversation i just had wiv one of my close friend. I'm on MC today, and the news is shocking! Me..transferred as something that i'm not ready to be??? I'd rather be pregnant and jump into the mommy wagon, at least i hv DH wiv me. I just told DH and SIL that i'm not ready to be a mg, when they suggested the idea.

I'm still absorbing the news. The transfer is effective in the month of august. That's like in 2 weeks time!!! Eeekss...crazy. I shd be thankful, at least my new place is in KL, that's what my close fren + my preggie angel told me.

....i need to calm down & go to the clinic to get my mc.

"I do not believe in a fate that will fall on us no matter what we do. I do believe in a fate that will fall on us if we do nothing."

vs

"Dah takdir...nak buat macam mane?"

Let's talk about something serious shall we? Did u read the quotes above? The 1st quote is from Ronald Reagan during his 1st inaugural address in 1981, while the 2nd quote is..well..the famous malay quote speaks for itself. I bet, u can see the attitude differences.

Me & DH talk about this looong time ago while we r still courting. One of his allegedly- self-profess - religious friend whom previously studied somewhere in Egypt raised this issue. The conversation might be something like this:-

Mr Self-Profess: So, u r with B now?

DH: Yes

Mr Self-Profess: Both of u looked head over heels. Aren't you afraid if ur fate said u will end up with somebody else?

DH: We thrived our best to end up together.

Mr Self-Profess: But if fate says the other way around. U can't do anything. [*go on to advice not to be so close to me]

DH: *speechless..


So, DH questioned me about it [*perhaps to test me or to see how far the conversation cud go]. I said..dear, it's true that the 6th pillars of iman is believe in qada' & qadar. But, does it mean we hv to just follow the fate and do nothing?? No, we can't do that. We have to do something to get what we want. Just look at the simple stuff u do every single day, in order to eat, u hv to buy food, cook, then eat. If u leave it to fate...will the food falls down on ur table?? No, isn't it? As simple as that. Anor example, jodoh. Most ppl said, jodoh dah ditetapkan. So what? does it mean u just hv to wait at home until jodoh comes knocking at ur door?

We r gifted with brains to think between positive and negative. If we hv to 100% put our faith in fate, then what is the purpose of prayer?? Why do we need to pray for something positive to happen to us??

So, i tell u what..the 2nd quote is a no brainer. It's all in the attitude. If u want something, work for it. If u can't get it, don't blame it on fate, blame it on u.

P/s: Don't use this for something negative tho'. Eg: U can't snagged anor woman's husband or fiance just bc u want ur r/ship to work out and blame it on fate. Think before u act.

"How much of human life is lost in waiting."

Do u hate waiting? I do. I believe that no one enjoyed waiting, but love being waited for. Right??. Like me, i love when DH patiently wait for me to get ready. But, i lost my cool when waiting for DH. Right now, I'm still waiting for DH to get back from work. While waiting i've done cooking dinner, washing clothes / cleaning the house, watching my fave tv show, YMing / IMing and surfing. But, DH yet to come home.

Ppl who knew me wud asked me these famous question:

Mr A: DH da balik?
Me: Not yet.
Mr A: Pity u, kene tunggu ur DH sorg2 @ home.

Mr. S: Ko sorg ke kat umah?
Me: haah.
Mr. S: Tak balik lagi? da kol bape ni? always like this ke?
Mr: haah.
Mr. S: kesian ko...

Miss D: Dh da balik?
Me: still working
Miss D: cemane ko leh thn?
Me: He's working??

Miss N: Dh da balik ke?
Me: not yet.
Miss N: Hahaha..kene tinggal sesorg.
Me: no choice.

Mr A, Mr S, Miss D & Miss N are the example of ppl who's concerned about me. At least i guess?? hehe. Well, fyi i found it a bit hard the first time waiting @ home alone. But, later i'm enjoying my quiet nice home all to myself. I can hog the tv and watch my fave channel [*if DH is around, ESPN is forced to be my fave channel], I can surf the inet & chat with my angels, close frens, siblings [*if DH is around..i hv to fight for the table cuz both can online @ the same time, we hv router], I can skip washing dishes [*sape lambat dia basuh], and i can be on the phone talking & talking to my close frens.

But...

I do miss DH @ times..& wishing he gets back early. But, i know..he has to work for us...or else i can't enjoy my fave comfy food @ our fave restaurants or holidayin' or shopping for new clothes or receiving surprise gifts. Eheh...for those treats i cud tolerate waiting:) & greet him wiv a sweet smile when he gets back. Err...not all the time tho...most of the time when he gets back i was asleep. Smiling while sleeping perhaps?? ;P No....seriously, i hv to be understanding, cuz this is the only time he has to work hard while he's still young. Saving for our future:) Besides, i believe, if given choice..he wudn't keep me waiting. Who wudn't want to be @ home where everything is comfy???