The problem with me if i'm x working is...

• I baked. Iye one cake after anor. I hv 2 more cakes in mind-soft cotton cheese cake and mini cupcakes with purple icing.
  
• I can't sleep at nite-i read it sumwhere it's called transient insomnia.
• I woke up at 10am...hahaha..rasenyer baru update an entry jadik early riser kan. Skang dah jadik temporary insomniac. I shd've seen it coming...i laid wide awake on my bed last few nites, watching lil zara sleeping secara lasak with her right leg on my chin. Suke ati betul dia tido.
  
• I became a BW addict again. I hv Hotsling, Snugg MT, SSC, now my eyes in on RS and other snugg buggs. The BW entry from me da long overdue..i'll upload an entry on it thn depan.
• I love surfing inet during nite time..esp at wee hours..like this.
  

Those r the top 5 problems.
The biggest problem seems to be the insomnia part. Sungguh troublesome having these sleepless nites.

*sigh..the only cure to this temporary insomnia is doing office work 8am-5pm...or perhaps opening my own baking biz or perhaps i shd learn to self-hypnotize.

As a head start..
I've changed into a new template for 2010 :>
To more blogging next year!

HOW I BECAME AN EARLY RISER

It is well to be up before daybreak, for such habits contribute to health, wealth, and wisdom.
- Aristotle


It's a wonderful feeling waking up in the morning
to soft kisses on ur face...
a bright smile that cud lite up the room with a hint of playful look in the eyes...
a warm hug...
cuddling together under the sheets...
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Finally, end up in a kitchen preparing a bottle of milk for my baby.


My baby is an early riser
I'm not an early riser nv thot that i'll be one of them, but..
i recently been forced to become one as motherhood sets in.

Yuhoo..i'm back!!
Lama da takde entry.
Lame excuse: i'm so busy sampai tak sempat nk bukak blog.
Tp org lain pun busy jugak, how can they juggle between work-life-parenting-blogging?
I dunno how they did it.

Updates:

Zara @ 8 months 4 weeks :

• An active baby..active giler, panjat sana sini [katil, cot, sofa, high chair, stroller and even her car seat] sampai semua org mengah nk layan n boleh dpt heart attack selamatkan lil Zara fr falling.
• Da pandai diri and jalan pegang railing from one end to the other end of the cot/playpen.
  
• A strong baby..terhantuk ke, terkepit jari ke..nangis dua saat lepas tu pegi tarik laci again.
• A cheeky baby..suke senyum/sengih sambil lentok2kan kepala, konon manja la. *ok...mmg nmpk manja pun.
  
• Loves her porridge, bread, chicken and whatever kind of foodie that ppl put into her mouth.
  
• Dah tumbuh dua gigi atas and dua gigi bawah. We bought a wooden cot for her and...she enjoyed chewing her cot. The cot dah ade new pattern!!- her gnawing marks.
  
• When she's sad/wants her milk/wants an attention she'll call mamamamamama, wc melts my heart right there and then.
  
• Loves magazines, papers, thick novels...Oh yes!! as i'm typing these..lil Zara baru koyakkan my Anne Rice. *tarik buku Anne Rice perlahan2 n bagi magazine camera DH to her instead.
  
• Loves sucking on her toes (both toes ok!). Old myth: nk adik la tu. Betul ke? Perhaps..however, she enjoyed having lil kids and babies around her.
  

Urs truly:

• True to the old myth-babies sucking toes=nk adik. As lil Zara turned 7 months, we found out that she's going to be a big sister. It's the best feeling to be pregnant again:>Whatever to those ppl whom questioned Zara kan kecik lagi? I hv my own reason why i'm on a fast track mode.
  
• However, at almost 3 months we rcvd a sad news-there was no fetal heartbeat in the gestational sac, it was an empty sac. After seeking second opinion and tests-our final decision is for a D&C rather than waiting for a natural miscarriage to happen.
  
• So, on 16th of Dec 09 i hd a D&C [a few days before my birthday..sape tak wish birthday lagi tu?? sile wish cepat;PPP]
  
• I'm recovering at home until early next year. The best part is i get to spend time with lil Zara & i dont hv to wake up early morning to go to work;> *blissful...
• A lil sad tho the lil baby bump is almost gone *rubbing my tummy. Owh well...i can fit into my old pants and jeans and having fun making baby bumps again;>
  

p/s: I hv loads of lil Zara's pics but our card reader ttinggal kat ofis pulak. Hence no piccas.

I've never been apart from my baby even a nite. I believed that she wud not be ok without me or something wud happen if i'm not around. Besides, i'm still BF-ing her and she might need me esp during nite time. Majority of 1st time mommy wud share this feeling.

For the first time on 29th Oct 09, i left her for a nite under her grandparents care.
That very morning the day i'm about to leave for ilkap, i kissed her cheeks with a heavy heart and almost burst out crying in guilt feeling like a selfish mommy.
On the way to ilkap i justified my situation as not abandoning her but i hv to focus on studying for the exam.
Obviously, i can't study at home with my baby zooming around & doing her cirque du soleil acts in her walker.
The day felt like neverending, the nite felt so long.
After the exam, i sped home like crazy. The term Biar Lambat Asal Selamat sounds stupid. If i cud fly, i wud fly straight to my baby.

When i got home..
The heavy feeling lifts up when i saw her waiting for me at the door.
Smiling widely and reaching out both of her hands towards me.
My heart melts and i almost cried..but, everyone including a cousin of mine were there watching us with ooohh and ahhhh pandainye dia.
Sibuk je semua org ni, thus..i hv to stifle a cry and my throat felt lumpy.

Even a nite, almost drove me to insanity the very next day...what more nites and days without her?
I need a stronger mental & heart to leave her if circumstances requires, but I really hope that there will be no more next time.
I'm absolutely amazed and tabik spring to mothers who has the strentgh to overcome the fear of leaving ur baby when circumstances demand.