Meet our Zara Khalyssa

Last entry, i was about to update a review on my pregnancy and perhaps post a pic of me looking like a lil bear (Serious chubby ok). But, all was put on hold due to Kb Jr's arrival. Muahaha..so, takyah la post gambar chubby;>

Instead let's talk about the arrival of our Zara at 37weeks:


Sunday 22/3/09

I had a clear mucus mixed with blood in the evening with a mild period pain. I refused to believe that this is the first sign bc i had this during my 34th weeks of pregnancy.



Monday 23/3/09

I was in the car with DH on our way to work when i had a really strong contraction, which made me hard to breath. DH had to turn back the car and we took the day off. DH decided for an early checkup as he's worried if actually Zara is on her way. While i stubbornly said it's just anor BH. However, everyone (including Aqeel's mom) insisted on me to go for a check up. So, with a confident feeling that i am not going to deliver so soon, we went for a check up at Pusrawi without carrying my hospital bag;PP

I remembered looking at my Ob Gyn, chuckled and said "Dr, i think it's just a false alarm". My Ob Gyn said "Well, dear let's hv a look". I was like confidently gembire2 almost jumping on the bed, so i cud end this check up early while picturing Pavillion in my head. But, tibe2 the Ob Gyn said "awak da 4cm ni..relax je? i''m admitting u to the labour room now". I was like.."huh???" with a mixed feeling including rase nk nangis [half bc of i'm not ready to deliver tonite and the rest is sedey tak dpt pegi Pavillion].

So..pendek cerita: I was induced - i agreed on epidural - Vacuumed - and finally episiotomy.

On the part of induced. Let me tell u something. I refused to be induced as soon after my Ob Gyn broke my water bag at 4cm (isnt't it too early?). After my Ob Gyn has left, the midwife came in and asked whether i want to be induced? i said "No!". 4 hours later, anor midwife came in and psychoed me on my refusal to be induced. I said my Dr didnt mentioned about it. She said the Ob Gyn ordered for them to induce me after she left. I refused to believe her, so i called my Ob Gyn and guess what? the midwife was right. As i was psychoed to induce plus afraid that my baby will be in trouble as i read that she may got an infection since my waterbag has been broken. With a heavy heart i am forced to agree on being induce. (I am angry at the thot of being cornered into induce).


Tuesday 24/3/09

On epidural. Simple ok, once ur Ob Gyn/Dr mentioned on ur likely to be induced silelah request for epidural. The pain is giler sakit sampai menggigil. I can only handle the pain for 2 and a 1/2 hour only or perhaps 3 (while waiting for the anaesthetic to come). One of the nurse told me that my induce was in a large amount (5 units) while she experienced 1/2 units, she cant imagined if i didnt request for epidural. Neither am i..i think i probably passed out. Hahahaha. The epidural was such a big relief. One advise from the anaesthetician during my ante natal class on epidural (don't flinch when the needle is inserted, u do not want the needle to enter deep into your back bone as it may cause a probing headache once the effect has gone).

On vacuum. I was so in La La land due to the epi. I can still feel the strong contraction on my right side (as the anaesthetic said, he prefered that i felt a bit pain rather than no pain so i can push my baby out). Well, eventho i can feel the pain on my right side...i can't push my baby out perhaps because i lost my energy and focus on being induced. So my baby was helped by vacuum with one mighty push from me.

On episiotomy. I got 3 stitches only:) Well, actually i believed that if i was given the chance to go for a natural labor i know deep down that i dont need the episiotomy bc my baby is only 2.2kg.

So..there u go on my delivery experience. I am angry that i was not able to undergo natural labor. Almost feel like being tricked into induce, perhaps that's the way nowadays..bc when i entered the nursing room almost everyone there was induced [the dif is only on their choice of pain relief]. So, my conclusion is most Ob Gyn nowadays like to induce ppl. One preggie friend of mine told me, that next time when im pregnant go for a male doctor as they have a high level of patience as compared to female doctor (they love to induce).

[i know this may sound cliche] but, seriously...when u look at ur lil one crying, sleeping, smiling or during bf...my thot is she's worth it, i wud go at full length tak kisah kene epi ke, induce ke, vacuum, forcep, csec or whatever way to get her out and i'm thankful that she's healthy and looked real content after being feed.

P/S: If u asked me whether i want to be pregnant again and do it all over again? I wud say yes;> ngehehe..That's enuff to summarize that delivery is not scary eventho it might sounds scary.